It’s been a while, I know. Christmas was wonderful! New Years was pretty boring, nice.
Finally, hitting my breaking point! I haven’t gotten pissed at Sopes since he moved. We both know this is what was best for our family and have pretty much sucked it up. Yesterday, kind of lost it – ok – went fucking crazy!!
I got through the holidays, cooking, shopping, wrapping, planning, the whole deal. Completely get it that he can’t help out. Being home with the kids for 2 weeks without a break, Jayla with her asthma attacks, me working everyday now and to top it off Jake is now having nightmares! I’ve hit a wall! One night of solid sleep would do me some good.
Yesterday was my move in day for the store. Sopes played in Montreal on Sunday and had yesterday off. Yeah, so I was hoping for him to come in and help me out. Nope – off to Florida to bask in the sun he went. Don’t get me wrong; he does come home more than I thought he would and does deserve the time to relax. His body is pretty beaten up, but the help would have been nice. Trying to lift the boxes, put furniture together and scrub everything down sucked without help.
I was woken up Monday morning at 4am to his late night phone call. Being up with the kids is one thing – this is another. His phone calls of boredom, along with, “It’s too hot here”; just not welcoming at all! I’ve got enough on my plate without trying to figure out his huge problems, like where to find a pair of shorts.
I, trying to be the patient wife, didn’t say a word until 8:15 last night. The kids were gone to bed and Dad still hadn’t called. Finally, I called him. Apparently, he just sat down to watch the football game. Before that? He was at dinner relaxing and watching the hockey game. Yup, lost it! I’d love just 10min. without worrying about everyone, let alone a 3 hour leisurely meal!
I did try going about my day this morning. Not wanting to fight the issue of clothes this morning, I dressed the girls while they were still sleeping. Jake off to school, check. Jayla off to school, check. Lyla, ortho appt. then off to school, check. The point where I knew it was a bed day? In Starbucks this morning they ran out of the little pink donuts I love. Haven't had them in over a month, but wanted to treat myself. I actually ended up fucking crying! This is when all of the moms out there know that you're too spent to actually have any sort of a productive day. My judgement at this point was questionable on all levels.
Today I’m spending the day in bed. Watching t.v. and reading. I’d love to take a bath, but that’s a whole other deal! The water in the tub is coming out brown. I’ve called the plumber, who couldn’t fix it, and have now given up. This would not be at the top of the priority list at the moment.
I officially need a break! Maybe when he comes home for All-star break, I need to go on vacation…